When i was 7years old..
I used to live in AngMoKio in the day,
and return home in Bukit Panjang at night cos afternoon at home no one took care of me.
So i entered Townsville Primary school.
There, being quiet and well behaved, i was made the class monitor.
Class monitress is Abigail. haha. cute girl.
So primary school was kinda weird..
eating icecream of which my granddad always treated me to..
playing pingpong balls.. chaptek..
There was this Xi Zhi. Practise writing chinese characters book we used to have.
Me and my 2friends always challenged each other to who can write the fastest..
haha. too bad we lost contact now.
In primary 3, i was promoted to the 2nd best class 3B
however my mum stopped working, so i transfered to Greenridge Primary near my house in BP.
So i got into the lousiest class (16classes in total) of Greenridge primary cos they have vacancy there only.
There, being quiet. I was nominated to be the school prefect.
I joined wushu. so i have 2clashing CCAs.
and my mum always ask me to pon prefect meetings..
so im a lousy prefect. who was too arrogant. and will shout at seniors to ask them to keep quiet.
Or i will write their names down.
Those were my arrogant days.
Till primary 4, i was transfered to the 3rd best class.
primary 5, 4th best class.
primary 6, 3rd best class.
to me, those in top class are just geniuses. i will always be in awe of them.
So everyday.. i just went home..
5mins walk away.. and slacked..
forgot wad i did..
but i pretty much had no life.
Me and my friend Wenpu pretty much did everything tgt.
volunteering for almost every single project there was.
And i joined IT club, quitted wushu.
IT club was pretty much Neopets.
and chinese tuition, the only tuition in my life.
In P6, weird days. I feel that girls started to exist.
And that some guys tend to be 'cooler and more outgoing' than others.
And i got 240 for PSLE..
my mum was waiting in the canteen for me..
i told her solemnly. 'i got 204'
she was like.. 'oh, ok' apparently not very disappointed.
then i was like 'HAHAH JOKING I GOT 240!!!!!'
i tot 240 was good..
until i enter commonwealth and NJ. i realised 240 is average..
suks.
anws most of my primary sch friends have now entered poly.
and btw. i had 'Role Model Award' for 3consecutive years.. haha
My dream school at that moment was Bukit Panjang Govt High.
i was crushed when i realised i couldnt go in.. missing out by one point.
However commonwealth sounds nice.. so.. go lo..
Lower sec.. my dark days..
There is an increasing gap between the outgoing and cool ppl.. and geeks like me.
yes. i was ostracised to a certain extent.
We performed in NDP when i was in sec1..
during the bus rides to national stadium.. i would sit alone cos no one else would sit with me.
i felt really sad. i felt like i was very inferior to others..
my jokes werent funny.
my looks werent that good. pimples were poping out like mad last time.
my results SUCKED. my results always lose to other people.
i wasnt outgoing.
i felt i wasnt good at anything at all.
there was this period i experienced identity crisis..
be who i am, or be someone cooler..
good clothes, good hair..
but.. zhengkai tzehow and gang saved me. they were more accepting of me.
thats how i pulled through sec1 and 2.
Even in choir, i was one of the lousiest guys there.
sec1 i was put to the 3rd row cos i cant reach the high note.
in sec3, i wasnt chosen for bass sl.
And i was nominated by teachers for almost every position there is in Choir Comm.
But very few voted for me. so i wasnt in the comm.
Even then, the comm then was.. one whole clique.
they went out together themselves..
they had all the fun.. they were good friends..
so left me and a few others..
going choir for the sake of it..
just appreciating the GoldwithHonours we had.
These 2years are really bad.
I rmb.. when i was sec1 and 2..
i didnt really know which JCs were good..
i only knew Raffles beats everything.
RJC,RI,RGS,RGPS
so.. i didnt even dare to dream of entering somewhere near there..
i just wanted to promote and go sec3..
i was in luck.
i wanted a bio class. cos i was ranked 95 in the cohort..
bio class is the 2nd best class.. so.. why not?
but my mum said 'Eh try triple science class for fun la'
altho its only for the top 40people, i tried applying it for fun.
and i got into Commonwealth's top class 3/1
im the only guy from my sec1 and 2 class..
This is the period when i started rebuilding myself.
top class= good culture.
mug every single minute between each lesson.
run down to canteen to eat.
chiong back up to class and mug.
and slowly. i beat every single sec1 and 2 classmates..
my results rose.
all my old friends were like 'waaa 3/1 leh..'
all these motivated me..
i thought i could be good at something at last.
so i continued to thrash my old classmates.
considering my crushed ego in my lower sec, i ought to be proud of myself.
Old friends began to find me and help them with their studies.. i felt better.
In sec4, i was nominated to be vice chairman
i gave my best for every single class competitions there was.
i wanted to show everyone that 4/1 is the best class there ever is.
i wanted to prove myself.
i wanted to show my worth.
and my class clinched all the chinese new year award for that year.
In sec4, i was given the 'Character Award'.
Yes, finally i had character.
my jokes became more funny.
im more or less more outgoing.
i feel needed..
i became fufilled.
In mid sec4, i applied for DSA.
mainly because 3 of my favourite seniors entered this school.
i see National JC. then im like.. whoa so cool.. national leh!
i went for DSA auditions..
with ekping and jurane..
but only me and ekping got thru..
it wasnt a good feeling..
after the auditions, my seniors who used to be in commonwealth.
said mslim told the whole choir my voice is damn zai..
i stunned. that was the first time anyone praised me.
conductor somemore leh.
then i was like 'i got that good meh'
i went for a academic test.. paying $50 for it..
and then a interview with viceprincipal and HODs.
all these i passed through along with ekping.
however.. DSA needed leadership..
i had none except Vicechairman to boast of.
so my entry to NJ via DSA was a mere luck.
i wasnt elated. ekping got thru like 1month before me.
Nevertheless, i went looking forward with NJchoir caroling before during the sec4 school holidays.
i went for practise.. went for their outings..
met the current J4s,J3s and of course, sixuan,xuemin,sheena,wanyun,eugene..
all the ips.
Then, i entered NJ officially.
first 3months was slack.
choir practise..
as you can see from now on.. NJchoir became my life.
whole day whole life sing..
class finish pia to choirstore.
Mslim became my encouragement pillar..
everytime she'll say 'Yongjian is a very good bass! Yongjian very good blah blah..'
cos.. she could tell i had no confidence in myself.
she is trying to inflate my deflated ego since lower sec.
so to jnrs reading this.. not that she is super biased..
she is a really good teacher..
lol. ohwells..
strong bonds werent made with my class for these 2years..
Of course in njchoir.. things went up and down..
Gold with honours (again) and Gold in italy..
mslim's moods..
i experienced 2 of my worst experience in my whole entire life.
until now.. i dunno if i should enter alumni to continue to be with the choir..
life jus had to get worse..
old problems revived..
and everything yada..
Alvls coming..
prelims ending..
army coming..
i see everything planned out for me..
altho i dunno if i should go for caroling the 3rd time..
japan trip..
i dunno why im posting these.
perhaps those who read this post will know more about my past..
quite sad ar. lols..
nvm la.. i will be happy..
soon.
jiayous me for physics tmr.
munmun laments..
6:48 PM
