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Saturday, November 1, 2008
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ok.. hahas..
woke up.. waa its raining super duper heavily..
so i decided today no need jog le ^^
so i stoned..
before doing some chem..

then my parents fetched me to Woodlands library to mug.
as usual.. the usual crowd of Sg ppl chionged in the moment the Holy Library Gates opened.
i jus sianned over there and settled for one uncomfortable seat..

hmm.. today was alright.. mugged from 10am to 7pm
did econs.. then physics.. then chem.. then maths..
tmr is math and GP day..
damn tired.
alot of stuff happened in todays 9hours in the library..

firstly..
i sat beside some NTU guys..
i stole a peek at their notes..
its says.. EE..
electrical engineering...
i was like.. whoa..
ok so i stole more peeks at their notes and tutorials..
looks freaking chim.. but i feel chem engineering is WORSE
and on this guys tutorial..
there was several question marks on his paper..
apparently he dunno how to do XD
so...
i have made up my mind not to do electrical engineering in uni for sure.

then i went to eat..
2.30pm..
whoa super crowded EVERYWHERE
macs is full.. kfc is full.. mosburger is full..
then ahh Yoshinoya is VERY empty.
so i took a seat and tada ordered some food..
i ordered something for $8.80..
wad de hell.. so ex.. no drinks some more...
no wonder here no one eat =X
i took a photo of it since it is so ex!

wastage of money rite.
then i walked around..
saw macdonalds..
ahh buy a Mudpie icecream and begin to eat while walking around..
its jus some lousy chocolate icecream with oreo on it..
hmm.. ohwells..

its nice to walk around alone..
u see wad u want to eat, you jus eat..
u see something interesting.. u jus walk there..
u wan to do wad, jus do..
so much freedom...

so i ate my icecream and walked around causeway point..
passing by a carnival giving out free Coke Zero
then u see about 100 ppl queueing for it..
im like so disappointed by singaporeans like..
something so cheap also queue until liddat..
damn cheapo lo..
but if i no need mug i sure go queue de..

and back in the library..
i feel stressed..
ok la.. as in.. now i FINALLY understand chemistry..
and beginning to like it..
but it like.. exam is a day away? and u r finally getting it now?
so wad?
u trying your luck at being good at it for the first time in Alvls?
ok like wtv..
and econs is confusing me.. im worried for econs.. but somehow.. i can do it leh..
jus very insecure.. wad im writing in essay.. not exactly in the notes..
like.. i dunno.. super bleh la..
and MATH.. the lowest i got for math in my JC life is a C..
and to be frank.. i haven touched maths for very long..
its like complacent..
ok maybe not.. i might have done about 5JC math prelim papers after my prelims..
but i DONT REMEMBER doing them at all..
like seriously..
the past weeks jus went by in a haze..
and.. i dunno wad i know..
but the fortunate thing is..
as of now i know wad i dunno..
and physics.. PHYSICS IS THE LURVE
but i dunno wad i dunno..
like srsly..
i do and do and do..
ok lo liddat lo..
i dunno how i can improve..
so i feel HELPLESS and i feel upset..
im worried to focus on others and neglecting physics..
:(
i dunno..
my mind is in a mess..
GENERAL PAPER IS ON MONDAY
guess wad..
i have done weeks of preparation but i still dunno wad i know..
summary and AQ is in a mess..
i dunno wad im supposed to do..
this SUKS
wtv.. i jus fold my eyes and run thru..
maybe i get C if im lucky..
D if im unlucky..

ok.. so im pretty..
stressed.

then the NTU guys left..
and 4ppl from YJC sat beside me..
like whoa.. they r from MY college!
i hear them say:
'whoa.. i wouldnt have came to YJ lo...' (like saying my name liddat :D)
'i 11th december enter army la..'
'im prettier than you.' (a guy saying it to a girl)
i lasted longer than them yay..
they came at 4pm.. left at 6pm..
im the ULTIMATE MUGGER MUHAHAHAHHAA

then my parents fetched me home..
on the way back..
'yj ar.. dun over stress yrself k..
now is not the time to ovrload yrself..
as long as u tried yr best its ok le..
no need to push yrself until liddat..
results is one thing..
as long as u have done yr best..
results doesnt matter'

aww so touching T___T
im insecure.. thats why i push.. and push..
even viv.. ask me to sleep..
ask to me sleep more even tho she have her Olvls now =.=
ask me not to work too hard..

but issent it wad everyone else is doing?
working hard..
very very hard..

im scared of doing badly..
scared of being the only one with less than 3As..
scared of not being able to enter NUS..
and now..
i feel its too late..
i dunno wad to do..
im insecure..
im scared.
im tired..

AWWW wad a emo post!
caught you!
u must have been thinking im emoing now rite????
HAHAHA
yea u r right xD

Eh Mary go pour me a cup of tea please..
shes my blog secretary for your info.

i shall go hug thomas my bolster now.
1day left

munmun laments..
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